on the mountain bed

"Maybe I did steal your heart and I am such a perfect criminal that you never even noticed."

Is there or is there not a point to bringing back my high school style, regular livejournal posts?

Negatives: it'll give me a reason to judge college-age Diva should I look back on them, no one is on livejournal anymore, I don't have anything interesting to say.
Positives: the lack of intersting things to say never stopped me before, it is kinda nice to look back on things, these are supposedly the best years of my life, and it'll give me something to do.

What the hell, I'll give it a try.

( take one )

high school girls are completely ridiculous. i'm very glad i'm no longer one.

( and i must be one )

make good life choices more often;
listen to new music, read new books;
watch paranoid park and the movies on tivo;
head to hell well at least a few times a week;
start eating in the room/not wasting gworld money;
get my ass into gelman, or at least the study lounge;
go to the study abroad office/the volunteering office;
review resume/work on cover letters/ask for letters of rec;
be happy

definitely doable.

date = meh.
i feel like i regret my inaction as much as i regret my action, which is no fun.
he's a nice boy, though.

that I legitimately love t.A.T.u. I don't know where it came from but I've listened to "Not Gonna Get Us" some six times in a row. I need the rest of this CD.

I'm really cold and I feel really weird.

I want my grandmother to come back.
I want to fix all the mean things I said.
I want my camera back.
I want to figure out how I feel about my changing morality.
I want to go back to school.
I want to see this kid.
No, wait, I don't.
I don't know.

and I'm already bored at home.
I did decently this semester, A- in Origins, A- in Science, B in Arabic (which I'm actually pleasantly surprised about, given my inability to consistently do homework, the million failed test, and the B on the midterm. I must have rocked the final or something) and a B- in international affairs, probably a combination of how I did on the final along with my shitty participation grade. So it's definitely not great, especially Intl Affairs, but it's definitely acceptable for my first semester.

I'm surprised about how much I miss college, but I think that's also because I'm home and being by yourself in a motel in Elkton, MD isn't anything like constantly being surrounded by your friends in the middle of Washington, DC. But it's weird to go from always being with your best friends and then suddenly they're gone. I dunno.

It was a really great first semester, though. Academically, it could be better, and it will be next semester now that I know a little more about balancing work and play, but it was wonderful. Like, the first week maybe I was considering transferring even though I knew that it would probably get somewhat better, but now I can't imagine loving school as much anywhere else after going here. Like, I'm pretty sure college is college and for the most part you'll love it either way; you'll love the freedom and the newness and whatnot, but I definitely thing it's a question of loving it more. I'm pretty sure I wouldn't love UD or UMD or American as much. I love my roomates, and I love my arabic friends, and I love the neighborhood.

I just wanna see my friends from home again, because I have so much I want to tell them and I miss them so much.
PEACE!

i laugh so hard i cry a lot here.
i love college.

A boy

To not be so much myself

To have a decent sense of hard work

To be sober right now

To stop sucking

is mostly what i expected and kinda what i feared it would be.
i've been missing my family absurd amounts, and there are lots of awkward conversations and such.
i've definitely met some chill people, which is cool, and i'm seeing superbad with lauren today and hopefully some of them, but i just hate this awkward feeling of adjustment. i'm actually pretty pumped to start classes just so i feel like i'm doing something. i mean once classes start i'm sure i'll regret that desire, but until then... pumped.
the experience dc thing was pretty cool. shit loads of walking in the heat, but we saw the big dc things that you need to see, and my small group was actually ridiculously awesome. we made tshirts last night.
and right now one of my roomates (elena) is moving in with her family and i think the other one (nejdra?) will be moving in later today.
but my rooms obscenely large and awesome, so i'm pumped about that, with a full fridge and microwave (again, pumped), so i think i'll be okay at college. i just want these next three weeks to go by in a second, and then i'll be used to things and have found some good people to chill with.
i do miss my friends something fierce, though.


ALSO, i fucking forgot the gmeece shot glass at home. KILL ME

so far, the birthday's been good.
ally showed up at 1130 and there were flowers and tastykakes and sparklers and acorn candles.
then today me momma and devi went to olive garden which was LOVELY.
and then i found some fabulous old pictures of me when i was a small small child.

guys, these iphone commercials are causing me actual physical pain.
i want so bad.

( word )

i am the master of the disproportionately attractive prom date.
oh well, tomorrow should be fun
ps no more highschool
what?

Please allow me to fill out my housing app because if I get stuck on MV because your website sucks, I will freak approximately sixteen leaks.
Thank you!

( But I love Annie and Mark real bad )

how random is it that i'm taking curran to prom?
i make the weirdest decisions in jeff's basement.
oh well.
i really am pleased with the new kelly clarkson.
and the fact that they're having a documentary about cocaine.
and the fact that i'm probably gonna make my deposit/enroll at gw on thursday.
and the fact that i deleted his ass off my buddy list.

except for that stupid nde, and those other three essays due tomorrow, life is good :]

so at the moment, here's what it's breaking down to, college wise.
i got into george washington, american, and james madison. james madison isn't really an option since most of the money they gave me was in loans. so that brings it down to GW and American.
American costs around $20,000 a year. GW (with the loans) costs about $5,000. BUT American offers a five year combined B.A./M.A. in International Relations. If I went to GW, I'd have to pay for grad school and pay off the rest of the loans after that.
But then again, what if I get to college and I realize that I don't want to do International Relations? I can switch easily if I went to GW, but if I went to American, I'd have chosen to pay the extra money for something I ended up not doing. Or, if I don't get into the combined program. I won't find out about that until the end of my third year of college.
But then again, I didn't get into the honors program at all for American, but I got waitlisted for GW so I might get that.